I recently read that in early sobriety starting a blog can be a very helpful tool. This is mainly due to the fact that writing and expressing your thoughts and feelings can be highly cathartic, but also due to the fact that it adds a level of accountability. If I drink – I can’t keep it to myself and hide it. So let’s give it a go!
My name is Chelsea and I am 28 years old. For the last 18 months I have been accutely aware that my drinking was becoming a major problem, and in the last 9 months, that problem escalated far beyond my control (perhaps a story I will post in the future). I have tried several times to really crack this whole sobriety thing, and time and time again I fell back into the same old horrible drinking habits. But with the start of a new year I am filled with that fresh, hopeful feeling and am really giving it my best shot. So, where am I at? Just before the new year I went 9 weeks completely booze free (I have already discovered that complete abstinence is the only way I will ever be able to do this) and I was feeling amazing, I really felt like the penny had dropped and I would never let another drop of vodka touch my lips again. Then I drank and I felt like all of my efforts were thrown out of the window. That was 12 days ago – which I know doesn’t seem like long but when you’re an addict, every second feels like an achievement. I’m not wallowing self pity in my recent slip up, I am just trying again, as recovering addicts all we can do is try and try again and who knows, hopefully this will be the time that it clicks and I never slip up again.
Cathering Gray perfectly sums it up in her book ‘The unexpected joy of being sober’ whereby she compares the road to sobriety as playing a computer game. If we mess up it is frustrating because we have to start again, however we have still learnt valuable lessons that we can then apply to getting further in the game next time!
I think I’ll leave it there for now,
All the best,
Chelsea xoxo
Sobriety and Me 