I never thought I’d make it to 30 years old. Yet here I am. I feel like I have a new shot at life, a life which I didn’t think I was going to have which means I can be hopeful for the future and start planning all of the wonderful things I never thought I’d do. With that said, and after much soul searching, here are my three goals/aspirations for the future.
Get married and have a family
I know this isn’t for everyone. Some people never want to, or feel the need to become a spouse, and that’s great. Some people don’t want to have children, and that is also great. But for me I long to one day have a family of my own and watch my children grow and blossom. I would never, ever have been a good mother when I was wrapped up in my addiction and I knew that. Now I can see a future, I have love to give.
Be successful in my job
Okay I’m successful in my job already, but I want to see how far I can go and what I can achieve if I really try. I want to climb the ladder and work my way up, I want to be respected in my industry and I want to be able to see my thoughts and ideas become a reality. My boyfriend finds it weird the amount of jobs I’ve had in all sorts of different fields, this is partly because I get restless and find it hard to stay in one place for a long time, but also due to the fact that I have struggled to keep jobs in the past whilst I was a heavy drinker. I am finding myself more and more motivated and driven these days so I’m aiming for the top!
Buy my own house
Unfortunately I have a rich history of being irresponsible with money and have made a string of poor financial decisions. I spent most of my money on feeding my addiction and didn’t really care that I was fucking up my credit in the process. This is something that I will be recovering from for a long time but I am making the right steps and repairing my mess. One day I will be able to purchase my own home, and what an achievement that will be! I will be able to make it my own and be proud that I worked for it!
These three things may seem rather mundane for some, or perhaps you have already achieved these things with ease, but for me, they are all I could ever hope for… and anything on top of that would just be a bonus.
Sobriety and Me 